Q19: TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

But in every way, she's learned from every thing. That's why she chooses to be happy and brave-- enough to back you up, be right by you, and tell you, "Everything will be alright. I was once there, too."

THE ART OF LETTING IT OUT

I came here for a need-- something that circles around my throat.
I came here for one reason and a hundred more.
I came here to tell You that I am weak.
Just to admit my weakness, You promised me strength.
Just to show you my heart opened to Your will, You promised me Your everlasting love.
Lead me, show me Thy way.
Guide my faltering steps, for without You, I'll go astray.
Show me Your hands of mercy and abound me with Your grace.

Here and always, I come as I am.

IF THERE'S SOMETHING LIKE THAT IN HERE

With spring comes my hope that 

frozen hearts and cold feet will be thawed.

BEFORE THE MORNING by Josh Wilson

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Do you wonder why you have to
Feel the things that hurt you
If there’s a God who loves you where is He now?

Maybe there are things you can’t see
And all those things are happening
To bring a better ending

Someday,somehow you’ll see you’ll see

Would you dare would you dare to believe
That you still have a reason to sing?
'Cuz the pain that you’ve been feeling
It can’t compare to the joy that’s coming

So hold on you gotta wait for the light
Press on and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning

My friend you know how this all ends
You know where you’re going
You just don’t know how you’ll get there
So say a prayer

And hold on cause there’s good for those who love God
But life is not a snapshot
It might take a little time but you’ll see the bigger picture

Once you feel the weight of glory
All your pain will fade to memory

It’s just the hurt before the healing
Oh the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning

IT'S A LONG WAY DOWN

Last night, I sat beside Depression.

She appears to be the same-- in smithereens, in tears telling me that she wants to end it. Plain in saying, she wants to commit suicide. Troubles have eaten up the best in her, anxieties have already blurred her senses, pain has lingered for such an unexpected stretch and the only way out is not through, but away from it.

I can see that depression is a central and inevitable fact of human existence. It is when all the faith that you have for yourself is gone leaving you weak, desolate, filled with misery, ruined, lost, broken; and when the bright and shining morning with its promise of new beginning got lost somewhere along the way.  

Time and again, welcome to Prozac Nation. 

These are some of the markers that we live in a morally suicidal world: 

The Virgin Suicides, Requiem for a Dream, Dead Poets Society, Looking For Alaska, A Long Way Down, Kurt Cobain, Jimi Hendrix, Sylvia Plath, Virginia Woolf, Anne Sexton, Ernest Hemingway and many other films, books and famous people that brought death (taking away of one's self) in real life.

I can see them everywhere. More so, suicide was personified and sat beside me.   

I remember the time I asked her to pick herself up, move on and choose to be happy, she told me,

"I can't. I can't gather myself up, I can't move, and I won't be happy enough without him, I don't even know now what to do!"


But I tell you these, my friend:

1. You say you want to die, but in reality, you just want to be saved but you just don't know how and from where else to seek for help. But Psalm 34:18 says,

"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted 

and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

You are not on your own, you are not left without an ally. The only reason why you feel that inner ache of loneliness and hopelessness is because you are looking for help in all the wrong places. No need to look anywhere but in His Word. Find refuge in God as Psalm 41:6 claims,

"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble."

  

2. Being at your lowest point can be the best thing that can happen to you. Because now you know that the only way you can go is up. 

3. Never put your happiness, self-worth and confidence in any man. People and circumstances may disappoint you but the one Who made you and knows all of you will not.

"It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man." (Psalm 118:8)

Do not be so needy for others, like you, they are also imperfect and prone to fall short on somebody's expectations.

4. Though we live in a morally suicidal world, God has something good for us in relief:

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." (John 16:33)

He's got it in His hands, so you need not to put the weight of the world in your shoulders.

Maybe you share the same state of affairs with my friend who has been a Walking Depression for such a long time now, I have some things for you. Things that I have learned along the way:

1. One of the most important truths that one has to know is that pain is real. For some, pain may come in moments, but for others, it has become their way of life. We cannot change the fact that trials will come and difficulties will come knocking at your door.

So just get back up when it knocks you down. Face it with all joy and account it as a fact of life.
:-)

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall in diverse temptations."  (James 1:2)

2. Trials are tests of faith in God. They determine your attitude with every situation.

"Knowing this, that the trying of your faith brings about patience. And let patience have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." (James 1:3,4)

3. God has a purpose for every trial.
He does not bring you in pain just for the sake of it, but to bring you down on your feeble knees and make you realize that you cannot hold everything in your hands-- that man is man and God is God.
You just have to surrender and let him lead you through by believing that He will be able to deliver you, if you only place your faith in him.

"So that the tested genuineness of your faith-- more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire- may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ." (1 Peter 1: 7)

4. Trials will come, but it doesn't mean that you have to walk through it alone.

"Fear not, for I am with you; be not discouraged, 

for I am your God; I will strengthen you, 

yes, I will help you; 

yes, I will uphold you with my righteous hand." (Isaiah 41:10)

Remember the poem Footprints in the Sand?
It says,

"During your times of trial and suffering, 

when you see only one set of footprints, 

it was then that I carried you"

5. Trials will always come to an end and will carry out something good.

"Obtaining the outcome of your faith, 

the salvation of your souls." (1 Peter 1:9)

Reminder:
LIFE, EVEN IF IT GETS YOU DOWN, HOPE WILL TURN IT ALL AROUND FROM SUICIDE TO SALVATION.

NOTICE

Henceforth, all posts will be for the new year that's named 2011.

This year, I believe, has a lot of things to look forward to. :-) 

And by the grace of God, all will be well and all will be met. 

God bless you who reads this. 

SEND ME

On 13 November 2010, just another day, a friend told me:

Kristine: Kaks, are you aware that you have a way of calming the heart? May it be distressed or breaking and hurting or outraged. Even when it seems insane, you can deal with it. I hope life's kind to you as you're kind to it. 

This may prolly be one of the sweetest things I've heard and the reason why I am always thankful for the people that come across my daily life-- may it be a stranger, an acquaintance, or a loved one. And in return, I have one thing in mind-- a prayer, an aim: "May I be a channel of God's goodness and faithfulness to someone else's life."

That...
... in the midst of a stormy circumstance in life, I am the one who says, "Keep calm and trust God."
... I may be the lover of the unloveable;
... I may be the bearer of the unbearable;
... I may be the last to let go of the rope or maybe the one who's left holding the ends of it.
... my life be so consecrated to God so that His love may be seen in me.

And may this be the prayer of each and everyman.

This idea sounds to be a tall order, but not as impossible with God.

So in this light, I would like to add one more tag in this site. I'm gonna call it Love Extended. Need I not to explain further, aye?

Happy reading. :-)