I would rather end up with someone who sees through the beauty of words, not necessarily, exactly the way I do, but for the basic parts, the fundamentals. For example, the beauty and grandeur of the words: "I love you."

...and may His glory shine round about you this Christmas Day.

Q20

As she read, at peace with the world and happy as only a little girl could be with a fine book and a little bowl of candy, and all alone in the house, the leaf shadows shifted and the afternoon passed. 

A Tree Grows In Brooklyn | Betty Smith

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COMRADE COMEBACK

DISCLAIMER:

I was not gone for naught, for in my absence, life happened in its own scheme. Yet again. AND, I am not good at starting from where I left off, but I will have to try. So excuse me while I give you short highlights:

JULY


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CINEMALAYA 2011: "Bahay Bata" and "Ang Babae sa Septic Tank" In photo set (Clockwise)  Ang Babae sa Septic Tank herself, Ms. Eugene Domingo; Me and Frau; ambush interviewee: JM De Guzman; Me and Glen

23

FAMILY REUNION IN TAGS: In photo set (Clockwise): Last day with Kuya Chris before he goes back to Germany; With Tita Suzzette, Mom, and Kuya Chris; With my niece, Marian; With Ate Gaye

26-27...

Going in and out of De La Salle Hospital with grammy till the first week of August.

AUGUST


02

HP 7.2 with Dad and Pao: Better late than never

08-13

CEBU DAYS/GRAMMY'S BIRTHDAY CELEB: In photo set (Clockwise): Tix for 5 pax; Takeoff sight; PAL; Touchdown Cebu!

CEBU DAYS/GRAMMY'S BIRTHDAY CELEB:
In photo set (Clockwise): Magellan's Cross; Fave Cebu resto: Casa Verde; Happy Ninja loves to eat!;
The best Fully Booked branch is in Ayala Ctr. Cebu!

CEBU DAYS/GRAMMY'S BIRTHDAY CELEB:
In photo set (Clockwise):  Danggit, Bay!; Lola's Raisin Cake. Thanks, Days Hotel!; Casa Verde's 9-inch Big Bang Burger! Watsuuuup?!; CnT Lechon!  

CEBU DAYS/GRAMMY'S BIRTHDAY CELEB:
In photo set (Clockwise): Last few hours in Cebu, off to Mactan Airport; "I'll see you soon!"; Taoist Temple (Sorry for this left-out photo); with the golden ladies (me, Tita Allane, Ate Nat; Grammy) 

CEBU DAYS/GRAMMY'S BIRTHDAY CELEB:
And of course, it is my pleasure to be my grammy's personal nurse all along!
I hope you enjoyed your 80th birthday! Love youuuu!

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AN ANSWERED PRAYER! :-) I am officially employed.
For more details, you may ask me personally or wait for my separate blog post for this. Haha!
P.S. Somebody so dear to me gave me this book last Sunday.
I know right, it does fit. Thanks, Tita Cris! :-)

So fellas, that was indeed one thrill of a roller coaster ride! *catches breath*

And I bring all my thanks to the Lord. :-) 

This is Comrade Comeback, signing off. See you around. ;-)

Q19: TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

But in every way, she's learned from every thing. That's why she chooses to be happy and brave-- enough to back you up, be right by you, and tell you, "Everything will be alright. I was once there, too."

21 | SOMETHING THAT UPSETS YOU

Something that is naturally ironic: When you are upset, you're actually down. But thinking in the light of hope and the B+ ('Be Positive') attitude, being upset means that there is no way in that state of yours but 'up'.

What upsets me most of the time is myself. I think that my 20th post is enough to explain that. 


On the other hand, I believe that I am just happy or unhappy with what I choose to think and feel.

Ah! If we could only realise that there are plenty other things out there that can outweigh sadness, we could possibly, if not easily, get ourselves together and kick a rotten day off to kingdom come.


I always tell myself: Choose to be happy. Choose to be thankful above all else.


P.S.
Another thing that upsets me:
When I let myself suffer with writer's block. 
I hope even aliens know how bad it feels, like right now.

20 | SOMETHING YOU REGRET (OR MY REGRETS)

Here's a truth:
Anyone who's been saying that he has no regrets in life is lying.

I, myself, am stitched by faith and grace countered by imperfections, regrets included.
I have them all in my being.

I regret that at times...

1. I am deeply consumed by my insecurities that stop me from going forward.
2. I have suffered for the most trivial things in life and carried unnecessary burdens with me.
3. I have failed to consider other people's feelings on the path towards my desires and end up hurting the ones I deeply love.
4. I have to say 'no' when I ought to have said 'yes' because of fear.
5. I would have to compromise just to be accepted and to belong.
6. I take things in my own way and forget that my Lord's ways are higher than mine.
7. I have to think about ways on how to please someone and put my principles at stake.
8. I let a day pass without making the ones I love feel special.
9. I would rather be misunderstood just because I am afraid to lose the one I'm arguing with.
10. I would have done my best but I did not.
11. I have chosen opportunities that equal my abilities than to ask for abilities that equal the opportunities.

12. I have to make myself believe that I am up to no good.

And the list goes on.

These are the reasons why I keep moving in life; this is why I choose to live each day-- because I have been through a lot of regrets and yet I have never lost the hope that one day, I will become someone better than the person that I am now.

19 | YOUR FAVORITE PLACE

My breathing space where music and musings live on.

Inanimate friends forever:

Four corners. 

Halogens. 

Books.

Toy cars.

Strings.

Percussions.

Outlets.

Windows.

Pillows.

Cassette player.

Dreamcatcher.

Lone lamp

Couch bed.

et cetera.

18 | YOUR FAVORITE MOMENT

I cannot have only one favorite, y'kno.
So, I'm posting two from a not-so-distant memory.

1. First ever stranded moment (thanks to Ondoy) 

The photo over there shows that I'm about to brave the floodwaters of Dapitan with my black heels on. I am rushing to get to our dormitory which is less than 500m away from St. Raymund's because I didn't want to be marooned  in UST (that time, I was actually thinking about: If I get stranded here, I have to be on the same clothes for 24 hours or so. Oh, undiezzz.). 

A weekend that was. Survival mode.

We were high and dry inside the dorm till Monday the following week. Such mole rats, we were. We didn't get enough food that we (I think there were 5 of us) actually shared a month-old canned peaches for our Sunday lunch. Convenience stores became islands away from our end, no network signal, power shutdown and all those calamity doodahs. Ah, thank God for friends, really. Roommates are your best chums in times of catastrophe. THE Ondoy experience was an unexpected team building event of the season.

2. Epic BK Experience

March 16-17, 2010. Burger King QC with Jem, Frau. and Glen

After our mini Pampanga field trip/legwork, we had to toil on our community paper. Define: CRAMMING. We stayed in BK for 24hrs (to be exact). The thing is, we had so much fun despite our lack of sleep and depleted enthusiasm.

The project was supposed to be passed in the afternoon of the 17th but we failed to beat the deadline. Sucks.

We finished the paper at 5 p.m. and had to rush it to Nitz Espana to have it printed. But here's the catch: We had to be in school at 6 p.m. for our oral interpretation finals in Retorika! Hello, hindi pa kami nakakaligo.

It was nearly 6 p.m. when we left Nitz and I really insisted to go back to my dorm for a shower. Late kung late. 

The odds were in my favor. I arrived in class dripping wet, I barely even brushed my hair. I apologized to my professor and he told me, "Hindi ka pa late." 

Really now? 

So, I took a seat and I got an SMS from one of my friends: "Nice. Wet look." So you liked it, my friend? I was actually laughing at myself at that very moment because I look like a complete idiot waiting to be called for my final oral interpretation. I was holding the Ustetika book with my forefinger bookmarked on the essay: Kontemplasyon ng Balahurang Estudyante sa Tapat ni Benavides by Karren Sena. "I'm not ready for this, but I have to give it my best shot."

The moment that I have not been waiting for came and it was my time to shine. I fortunately delivered the piece well and even made my blockmates and professor laugh. Crazy.

"Naisip ni Lord na kailangan ng konting komedya sa mundo kaya ipinanganak ako. 

And saya-saya 'di ba?"

So those were the days. And my favorite moments happened in college. How I miss!