Q008

"Dear God, I prayed, all unafraid
(as we're inclined to do),
I do not need a handsome man
but let him be like You;
I do not need one big and strong
nor yet so very tall,
nor need he be some genius,
or wealthy, Lord, at all;
but let his head be high, dear God,
and let his eyes be clear,
his shoulders straight, whate'er his state,
whate'er his earthly sphere;
and let his face have character,
a ruggedness of soul,
and let his whole life show, dear God,
a singleness of goal;
then when he comes
(as he will come)
with quiet eyes aglow,
I'll understand that he's the man
I prayed for long ago." 

— Ruth Bell Graham

Q007

It is life in slow motion, 

it's the heart in reverse,

it's a hope-and-a-half:

too much and too little at once.

                                                      - The Wait | Rainer Maria Rilke 

INFIDELITY

I am caught between two.

It was this Thursday night when I realized that I am absolutely capable of loving two entities. Just because I couldn't help it.

I was invited by Kim, a very dear friend, to her place and introduced me to this writer named Haruki Murakami. I know that his books are up for digs, scattered everywhere, and that a lot of people that I know of have a greater understanding about him and his creations. I can even laugh at myself from the delayed appreciation.

Only that, I wasn't paying much attention then.

So Kim handed me the book South of the Border, West of the Sun and as I was browsing and reading through the highlighted lines from it, I easily had this different kind of connection. I gasped in agreement and said, "maybe, this is indeed a story of a love in a cool climate. I'll give this book my attention." More so, I am actually thrilled as a lover than a reader.


I know that I still have to finish up reading Catching Fire (thus the infidelity) which I am pressured to do so just because. Kill me now. And you should know that I really am in love with the series. But due to some reasons, circumstances have filched my time to curl up and read. But it's okay.

So here I am, finding a good reason to stay longer in bed because of being sick. This is the perfect chance to spend time reading 2 books, almost both at the same time. After a chapter in Catching Fire, I'll switch to read a chapter from South of the Border West of the Sun. They do well in taking turns and it feels good.  


Thanks Murakami, I can totally relate to this book.

P.S.
I'll be posting some of my fave lines here. :-)

Q006

All I could do was remember. Like an endless tape loop, memories of the night before replayed themselves, over and over. 

                                                     -Haruki Murakami | South of The Border, West of The Sun

Q005

It is a risk to love. What if it doesn't work out? 
Ah, what if it does?

                                                                                          -Peter McWilliams

SEND ME

On 13 November 2010, just another day, a friend told me:

Kristine: Kaks, are you aware that you have a way of calming the heart? May it be distressed or breaking and hurting or outraged. Even when it seems insane, you can deal with it. I hope life's kind to you as you're kind to it. 

This may prolly be one of the sweetest things I've heard and the reason why I am always thankful for the people that come across my daily life-- may it be a stranger, an acquaintance, or a loved one. And in return, I have one thing in mind-- a prayer, an aim: "May I be a channel of God's goodness and faithfulness to someone else's life."

That...
... in the midst of a stormy circumstance in life, I am the one who says, "Keep calm and trust God."
... I may be the lover of the unloveable;
... I may be the bearer of the unbearable;
... I may be the last to let go of the rope or maybe the one who's left holding the ends of it.
... my life be so consecrated to God so that His love may be seen in me.

And may this be the prayer of each and everyman.

This idea sounds to be a tall order, but not as impossible with God.

So in this light, I would like to add one more tag in this site. I'm gonna call it Love Extended. Need I not to explain further, aye?

Happy reading. :-)

39 DAYS TO GO

Promise you will be

Nobody else's little Christmas tree

I'll make you sparkle, just you wait and see.

This is part of today's roster of activities: assembling/putting up the Christmas tree we bought at Designer Blooms-Alabang last Sunday. The old tree's already in its retirement age so we had to look for a new one. :-)

By the way, we had it arranged by some designers from where we purchased it (part of the scheme). And they arrived for service ahead of time! I dint get to talk with them a lot and helped (I really wanna!) but the lady in black said that we'll see her next year. LOL. Anyways...

I'm so excited for Christmas!

How about you?

CHRISTMAS AND ANY GIVEN DAY WISHLIST

Some cold air convinced me that I should put up my list before this day ends. Haha!


So far...
*IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER*


1. Moleskine Music Journal

2. Dave Eggers and Nick Hornby novels

3. The Architecture of Happiness by Alain de Botton

4. Come Thirsty, Traveling Light, Next Door Savior (3-in-1) by Max Lucado

4. Belkin Verve Sleeve with (or without can do) clip for iTouch 4g

5. Staedtler Triplus Fineliners (20s)

6. Hot Wheels (Porsche, Mini Cooper, Shelby) or The Godfather 1940 Cadillac Fleetwood Die-Cast Car (1:18)

7. Korg Chromatic Tuner CA-30 or a multipurpose tuner 

8. Roxy or Billabong knapsack

Not so graphic like this. Solid colors will do.
There's one in MOA that I like. Mom knows. LOL

9. Vintage Shirts from Zara/Trafaluc

Can spot these in Trafaluc MOA. I want the one with Kellogg's.  :-)

10. Bean Bag

11. A visit and something from Heima

Located at Bel-Air II, Makati. Prolly you'll find my bean bag there. :-)

12. A pair of Chucks | Dr. Seuss Collection

13. Anything with Union Jack like Converse "The Who" ;-) 

14. Anything Adidas

15. Locket-- a classic piece

16. Something specially-made. Something with the sender's personal touch. A letter. A poem. Anything with my name on it. :-) 

17. A MEMORABLE FELLOWSHIP/DATE WITH MY LOVED ONES.

And when I am placed in the middle of loving and all of its uncertainties, hear me say, 

"If God be for us, who can be against us? Seriously."

OH WELL

This is one of the days in my life that doesn't wanna end.

So far, I'm good with some natural tendencies.

Why?

1. Church went great and lovely. We learned lots of stuff and I'm blessed to be blessed! :-)
We learned about the 3 principles of parenthood. Here are my notes for the morning service:

2. The globe spun for the Pacquiao-Margarito Match.

Look what have you done with the people, Pacman!
LOL to the people in ATC who desperately wished for the Pay-Per-View.

Anyways, Congraaaaaaaaats, Pacqs! :-)

3.THIS!

 Current read: The second installment of The Hunger Games series.
Gameface: ON!

4. CAFFEINE OVERDOSE.

Or maybe, just enough to keep me awake for the best number of hours. LOL. I feel so great right now. Can you feel? LOL.

Anyways, this is just a quick update, ya'll. Bounce! 

Q004

The love I've known is the love of two people staring not at each other, but in the same direction. 

                                                                                                            - Frank Bidart | To The Dead

THE HUMDINGER

Just so you know, I've got my eyes on you. Nuff said.

Q003

She wants to know if I love her, that's all anyone wants from anyone else, not love itself but the knowledge that love is there, like new batteries in the flashlight in the emergency kit in the hall closet. 

                                                       —Jonathan Safran Foer | Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close

FIRST DAY, SECOND SEMESTER

Get a pair that's tailored for floods

Old folks talk a lot. This is one I ought to love.

The clock ticked slow.

First class for the opening of the second semester was Media Ethics and Libel Law. You can practically feel something fierce with the subject name itself- something that might get you into serious trouble in the near future. I was actually expecting a terror professor to handle this subject--I was actually expecting my Philippine Government Constitution professor way back my freshman year, not saying that I was actually a cliffhanger all the way through. Define trauma.

But it seems to work out in a way contrary from what I am expecting. For this subject, I will have Ms. Alice Colet Villadolid. She shares she's the careful type of person. I suppose she is, and she will with regards to her grading system. I can see she's nice. Oh, please? I will strive the hardest for this. Despite all my pet peeves in memorization.

Today:

• It rained so hard that I have to brave Dapitan's streets and get drenched. Umbrella seemed to be invisible. I even went to school in flip flops
• Pigged out with my roommates at Wok, Dapitan. We even made a lame Vlog. For our eyes only.
• Got the wifi back. Yaay! 
• Currently watching: Iron Man ;-) Okay, late bloomer. But, better late than never. 
• Will be pulling out an all-nighter. 

Just a foto with bad exposure. My notes earlier. :-))

Q002

There's just this for consolation: an hour here or there when our lives seem, against all odds and expectations, to burst open and give us everything we've ever imagined, though everyone but children (and perhaps even they) knows these hours will inevitably be followed by others, far darker and more difficult. Still, we cherish the city, the morning; we hope, more than anything, for more. Heaven only knows why we love it so.

                                                                                           —Michael Cunningham | The Hours

Q001

Sometimes, language is the sound of longing.

                                                              —Simon Van Booy | “Snow Falls & Then Disappears”

AH, CHILDHOOD!

I have a lovely light...

I'm a friendly little star you wish upon each night. 

                                                                 - Twinkle,Twinkle Little Me, Stevie Wonder

These are some of my kid snaps I dug from the foto chest. Most of them are taken in Jeddah, S.A. 'cause we stayed there for three or four years and there's one taken here in the PH.

You have to agree, I izz soo cute, yez?! :-))

I rock my bangs. LOL! I think I'm 3 here.
In our unit

Green Apple, my love. :-)
A snap when I turned 4.
@Pizza Hut

Greet the 4-year old pizza monster a happy birthday ;-)
@ Pizza Hut

Baby Chun-Li ;-))
I think I just turned 1 here.
@ our House in Las Pinas, PH

Since there's no PH Christian school  nearby,
my parents sort-of-like homeschooled me
instead.
Paper, pencil, and that F1 poster at my dad's nook. ;-))

I grew up wearing jumpers! LOL. I love them!

I AM THINKING ABOUT...

1. pitching my favourite quotes here. And when I do that, for sure, it would be A LOT. And most of them will be cross-posts from my alternative blog. I will place them under the "words that strangers put in my mouth" tag.

2. not going out of the house tomorrow. I want to spend my last day of semester break at home. Will be packing up also. Dorm life is coming back soon.

3. doing my Christmas wishlist. Hohoho! :-p

4. DL-ing more tracks for new mixtapes. But 4shared.com's being laaaaaaame these days! I hate it. Where else can I DL?

5. Ustetika :'-( Am I gonna push through? November 11 is coming real fast!

6. the wifi in our dormitory. Is it fixed now? I'm gonna be pissed if not. Oh, please.

7. our thesis. We can do it, right? Please balieve that we can. Just before USTe's Paskuhan. 'cause I want to have a decent Christmas break! Looooord, please?

8. our church's choir preparation for the Christmas presentation. 5 more Sunday rehearsals to goooooooo!
Lezzdodizzz! Hallelujah Chorus, please be kind to us.

9. catching up with a lot of people that I badly miss. Nangungulilaaaaaa!

10. the SB '11 planner. I'll start collecting sticks this week. I promise I will get more hot drinks than frappes. For the sake of my diet, okay? :-)) Whip cream break.

11. The Helium Party. It's something about letting go. And my friend and I will do it at the bay, real soon. Will do a separate post about it. Prolly on the 3rd or 4th week of this month.

12. my grades for this upcoming sem. I will break both of my legs for this last hurrah! I will try to love the unloveables! Hahaha!

13. more books to read! Yeah, despite all the loads that will soon come my way. :-) I will always find time to read a book every month, at least. This is one of my favorite escapes. So please, let me.

14. one particular person. No fail these past few days.


15. living healthy. Hahaha! I'm serious!

16. Ugh! I have lots of things in my mind awhile ago and I forgot about some of them! I hate my memory.

THE GAME IS ON

I've never been the one who's up-to-date with books. What I mean to say is that, it is unusual for me to get a newly released book that's still hot on the tracks. Unless if it's a tray of Krispy Kreme doughnuts. Ha!

As far as I know, Suzanne Collins's The Hunger Games (first book of the trilogy) was released on the year 2008 and I was never aware of it since last August *kill me now* when Mockingjay (third book) became the talk of the town. 

I've read a lot of good reviews about the book and how the story interests me. 

So after all those Googling and stuff, I decided to get myself a copy this morning before going to National Lib for thesis and even asked one of my friends to buy his own (on this same day LOL) so that we can both read the series and race till Mockingjay. 

And this is my lunch:

The Tuna Thing from BreadTalk (I forgot the name, sarreh. I skipped Floss today LOL);
Oishi Smart C+ Pomelo ;
the new buddy next to Chbosky's (which I finished reading last week)
and what made me the happiest is Hall and Oates's You Make My Dreams (from 500 DoF OST) that was played

One good way to feed your appetite ;-)